Jump Start 2013!!

So it's 2013!!  I have a huge list of things I would love to get accomplished this year ! I received this in a email from my friend Cindy .  I found this very true for my life. I am one hell of a strong Palm Tree. Are you a strong Palm Tree too? 

TODAY’S SCRIPTURE

“The righteous shall flourish like a palm tree...”

(Psalm 92:12, NIV)

Have you ever seen a palm tree in the midst of a great storm? That tree may be bent so far over that it’s almost touching the ground, but when the wind finally stops, that palm tree bounces right back up. What’s interesting is that while that palm tree is hunched over under the pressure of the storm, it is actually becoming stronger. See, the reason God said we’d flourish like a palm tree is because He knew there would be difficult times. He knew things would come against us to try to steal our joy and victory. But God said, “You’re going to be like a palm tree because when the storms of life blow, you are going to come right back up stronger than before.” As you reflect on the events over the last year, remember, the storms you have encountered have only made you stronger. You are wiser, you are more alive, and you are headed for victory. Your brightest days are right out in front of you! Always remember that with God on your side, nothing can hold you back!

A PRAYER FOR TODAY

Father in heaven, thank You for making me strong in You. I trust that You are working in my life, even in the midst of the storms. Thank You for a new year and a new season of blessing in You in Jesus’ name. Amen.

Time slips away again

Well I must say I didn't think it has been since July since I have last posted.  I guess it has.  A lot has happened!   I will tell you that there is no change in my son's medical care.  He is still getting infusions .  Still going to all his doctors.  Tomorrow we are going to an eye specialist to hopefully get some answers finally!  The regular eye doctor still don't know so I hope we get some answers.  Maybe it will help with the reading and spelling.    I recently Discovered SCENTSY!!!!  Oh boy do I love this stuff.  I can actually use the stuff in my house!  It doesn't bother my son at all!!!  Which is super huge!  So decide to start selling it!  SO here is my website
www.heavenlyscentstab.scentsy.us  .

Scentsy is wonderful love the smell  and love the simple fact that none of wax goes in the air I breath or on my walls.  !!!  It's simply amazing


Love Love Scentsy

Thanks to all who donate blood & plasma !!!!  God Bless you ALL!

Head in the Clouds.

Lately  I feel like my head has been in the clouds.  It's almost like my brain is on overload of other peoples thoughts.  I can't think straight or even put words to paper. On top of that I have been having very very weird dreams which none of make sense or pertain to my life.   It's weird!  It's almost like I am standing in proxy of someone else life.  I have been praying for this person whom ever they may be to find the peace they need.  SO if your reading this and it feels like you then know your prayers are being answered as I stand in proxy for you !!

I am ready for the haze to disappear and the sun to shine on me .  I hope I get my wish for my birthday present.  Along with everything else we need for my family.

God Bless you all and have a wonderful week.

Tristan has been doing physical therapy and Monday is our last training session then we are our own to do his physical therapy for the rest of his life. ( This is all the the sessions the insurance will pay for)  So now it's one more thing to add to my list.   Mother, teacher, cook, nurse, maid, chauffeur, pharmacy, physical therapist etc.  Never in my life would I thought my life would go down this path.   God has a plan and I am blessed with even these simple things to know.

Fifty Shades of Grey!

Well during this month I have read the Fifty Shades of Grey trilogy.  I must say I loved all the books.  Yes they are for sure dirty sexy, which isn't something I usually read. Needless to say I read between all the kinky sex and found a wonderful story.  This is a wonderful story of how an abused boy becomes a rich and powerful man who actually falls in love for the very first time.  He loves this women more then anything . As she loves him no matter what has happend or what he's been through. Yes all the kinky crap makes it interesting but so does the love they both have for each other.

 A lot of men should learn how to love a women without rules or judgement and treat them like there the center of there world.  You should want to give your wife everything .  You should tell your wife they are beautiful .  ... On that note women should love there men unconditionally just as men should do for there wife. Now a days most men don't & women don't treat each other with love and kindness.  Your affection or words should stop because your married or have a family. If anything it should bring you closer together and deeper in love. Yes it can happen... you should just be patient for the right love instead of the love you inner goddess wants at the moment.  There is someone for everyone.  Please mom and dad's teach your boys how to treat a women with respect and love and teach your girls how to treat a man and what not to accept in a man.  That is your job as a parent! If your children see you treat your spouse like shit what do you think there going to do.  If they see you both treat each other with love, respect they will do that. 

In Short Men find your inner Mr. GREY and Women find your inner MS. STEELE.
Happy reading .

Ready for the slow down!

Oh my, Can we say busy.  I am so looking forward to July. Weird I know but maybe things will slow down a bit.  This month has be nothing but appointment after appointment.  Tristan has been very sick off and on all month.  My daughter Lilly has been sick for the first time in ages.  I tell you they are like polar opposites when there sick. Tristan is very used to it and mellow plus he still smiling when he's sick , he know no different.  Where Lilly is very very whiny  when she sick. It makes for interesting time in this house when there both sick at the same time. It make for one very tired mom. Between my son having to sleep in my room due to him having breathing episodes in his sleep & Lilly wanting everything done for her.  I don't mind  but I don't like when my son has breathing issues in his sleep ( Meaning he as asthma attaches while he sleeps and he stops breathing and doesn't know it) Which becomes very scary and makes for no sleep. It's just been a long month. 

I was asked how in the hell do I deal with.  All's I can say is I was never given a choice, I put on my big girl pants and a smile on my face and pray to god .  That is all you can do.

Busy Busy Busy

Why is it that our lives are always so busy?  I has been a whirlwind few weeks. I will be glad when I have a moment to stop and breath !  Did I tell you I totaled my poor car in a fender bender?  They sure don't make cars like they used too.  I loved my rental car so very much that we went out and looked at  new ones. We did purchase and American Made Car this time.  We are the proud owners of 2012 Ford Focus.  It is fully loaded and we love it.  Althought with in 24 hrs of having it my son spilled his drink right in the seat so much for a clean new car.  HA  life happens when you have kids.  Monday the 21st starts a very long week for me .  We have to be at Cardinal Glennon every day this week.  My car is going to have some miles on it by the end of the week!  See you all next week!  God Bless!

Eventful Week!

Well it has been a crazy couple of weeks!  Oh where to start.  Lets rewind  to my son's last infusion April 27th.  The infusion went great.  Saturday my son woke up sick and did nothing but lay on the couch and watch TV.  Which isn't like him he's usually active even when he's sick.  He shouldn't be getting sick the day after his infusion.  Well come Sunday night he went to the bathroom and said the pain got worse and was on the lower right side.  So I called into the doctors and they said take him to the ER and see if it was his appendix or if he was full of poop.  So I did.  I was there all day Monday bottom line he was full of poop which I suspected but didn't have an x-ray machine laying around the house. It's not typical of him to be stopped up he usually doesn't have a problem. Long story short , the treatment they gave him was NOT right and DIDN"T work and they best pray to GOD when he goes the GI appointment that there isn't a reason for what happened. Which my gut say there's a reason.  I can tell you If my gut is right some heads will roll. !  Moving on to Tuesday was a much need rest day or so I thought.  I had errands to run and a house work to do.  Moving on to Wednesday  Tristan and I had to be up supper early and be at Cardinal Glennon for training for physical therapy land based. My insurance will pay for them to train Me & My son on his physical therapy land based.  The will also be training us on the water therapy .  (really just showing me some pictures ect.)  This will be therapy he has have for the rest of his life.  Let me tell you it was very eye opening.  Fast forward to after therapy was over I was stopped at a red light and my whole right leg went numb next thing I know I hit the gas and hit the truck in front of me.  Well needless to say that was a sign this mom need to actually rest.  Running on very little sleep isn't good for my Fibro crap.  No one was hurt in the accident.  I didn't even hurt the Truck I hit (it was a very old truck)  but my poor little car is totaled!  So it totally ruined my whole rest of the day.  My husband blew 2 tires on his dump truck and had to get new tires.  He's a good customer so the tire shop gave him four baseball tickets 5th row from 3rd base. MY kids have never been either .  With being so close to the field we decide there wouldn't be many people around us for Tristan's sake.  So we borrowed our in-laws vehicle and decided to go.  Put the worries of the horrible day behind us and have some fun at the Cardinals Game.  It was a great night. Then Thursday HAPPY 10TH ANNIVERSARY TO MY WONDERFUL HUSBAND DALE!  I had to get some bids on my car repairs for the insurances.  Once I seen the quotes I just knew in my gut they were going to total it.  Plus it wasn't drivable. So I decided to look at the positives may be God knew there was something wrong with my car.  I also got a rental car . I love the rental car! It's a 2012 Ford Focus.   We went and had a family dinner with the kids and my sister in law at LA Pachanga Mexican Restaurant.   Friday the insurance adjuster came out  and just as my gut thought  my fender bender has totaled my car! ..  So Saturday & Sunday we are looking at dealership for a vehicle. Now we are waiting on the funds for the old car to get the new one.  Well this is another typical crazy jam packed week.   (ps my son's stomach is still all messed up I have talked with the Gi and he's on some stuff and it's actually working) God Bless everyone have a great day.

Red tape!

Well a couple of weeks ago I finally got all the red tape cleared.  SO now I can have a benefit for my son.  What a relief !   Now I have no clue on how to throw a benefit!  I have donated items and helped work benefits.  I don't have a clue what I am doing!  I need god to send me a angle to help.  I never thought in my life I would need to know this kinda of stuff but when your back is against the wall there isn't much you can do.  Have a great day. Love life. Be happy 

God Bless Everyone who is praying for my son and family We ARE VERY GRATEFUL!
Please people keep donating that blood and plasma! You are helping my family. I am very grateful to everyone who has ever donated. God Bless you all in every way!!

SO the price rise

Why must things be so darn expensive!  My husband and I have been going around getting prices for the hydro spa that my son is going to need for his therapy  and a building for it to be housed in so he doesn't get sick in the winter. Well we found out the hydro spa is 11,000 and  depending on what type of buliding you put it in those range from 7,500 to 18,000 .  My insurance doesn't want to cover any of the cost of his orthoditics that he will need every 6 months either  or his hyrdo therapy and his physical therapy. 
However they will pay to have me trained on both therapy's and for Tristan and I to learn what we will need to do for the rest of his life.  Ugh.  Right now I am scrambling my brain to figure out what to do .  I pretty sure I am going to have have a fundraiser/benefit.  I have never had to have one for my son . We have always been able to provide everything he needs. Having a medical needs child comes with LOTS of expensive bills that insurances don't cover.  It would be much easier if he could just go to a public pool etc.  With his immune system condition and all his other medical condition it makes impossible to do. I won't chance that.  I chanced his immune system once before when I let my son go to my dad's wake which was 1 hr and only for family.  That resulted in my son getting very sick and his infusion levels getting raised permanently. I will never forgive my self for that.  I let my guard down for just a moment and it resulted into that.  I know I should blame my self but I do. Now I have to figure out what to do. More on the subject later. God Bless.

Still unable to talk

I am still unable to write about the new conditions the doctor has said my son has. This is on top of all the other things he already has.  I still trying to wrap my head around it all and I am researching it. Why is it that my son gets the rare things that are hard to research?  I can tell you my head hurts very much and I am awaiting the blood work  results which take 30 day to run or 30 days of more torture.  Out of the mouth of the doctors " there is usually something else that goes along with this"   .  My insurance is being a PITA (Pain in the Ass)  .  So all this new therapy and orthodontics and buying the equipment for the hydro therapy is all on me. This is stuff he's going to need for the rest of his life.  So far the price is around $17,000 which I don't just have laying around .  I am researching on holding a benefit or fundraiser or donations now.  Wishing I had help from someone , but I should know by know if I want something done I have to do it myself.  How come other people can depend on you but when its the other way around they just don't care.  I tell you something it almost makes want to scream and say something .  I can see if I didn't have my faith where I would be telling some people where they could shove it! You really find out who the people that care about you are.  Some where in my mind I have this thought that if I say what the condition is it makes it permanent.  Very few people know whats going on for now.  I  won't leave you hanging just trying to deal with the emotions of it .

God Bless Everyone who is praying for my son and family We ARE VERY GRATEFUL!
Please people keep donating that blood and plasma! You are helping my family. I am very grateful to everyone who has ever donated. God Bless you all in every way!!

WE ARE NOT CRAZY!!

  This one goes out to all the parents who ever had someone think they are crazy or making up their child’s illness just because the people (& or family) can’t find their illness online or never heard of it.  NEWS FLASH there is lots of RARE medical conditions. There is a TON of illness that is not online! I have been asked and accused of this so many times.  What really hurts the most is when FAMILY does this and they choose not to understand!   I am going to tell you all something I should have said to family & friends & people in general, when I hear someone suggest “It’s all in my head”.  Well here’s what I will say to that from now on.  I should have the guts to say it many times to people but I was told to just “turn the other cheek”.  SO, I have thought this is in my mind many times.   WHAT ARE YOU PEOPLE STUPID OR JUST HAVE NO BRAIN!!  I mean really?   Let’s stop and think or can you? I mean actually use your brain?  Do you people hear the nonsense you’re spitting out your mouth??  I mean really WHO in their right mind make up an illness for their child.  I mean there are people but I am not one of them!  If you don’t know me well enough to know that, then you DON’T need to be in my life.  Really?  I know in your silly mind you think its all fake.  Let’s break it down for you.  I am so good at this “fake illness” that my child gets blood infusion, oh yeah and let’s not forget all the surgeries, oh and there’s the fact that he’s a MAKE A WISH child!  Really in your pathetic little mind you’re the one who needs the help!    Here’s a NEWS FLASH!!  1 .  Every time my child goes to the doctor it comes with more than one opinion of more than one doctor. They don’t just say he has something it comes with loads of testing to be sure then they tell us.  2.  They don’t give your child surgeries for NO REASON.  3. You don’t get infusions for the fun of it.  4.  You sure in the HELL don’t just qualify for MAKE A WISH!  5. You don’t get medication to take for no reason.

It saddens me that I have to spell it out or just get plain mean.  Don’t assume for one second that just because he has been doing fine for awhile that another major illness can’t come along.  WRONG! It can and it does!  There’s a LOT of work that goes into him LOOKING FINE. What I will never understand is those people who think,” oh your kid looks fine” and still don’t get it. Or those people that see what you go through and still choose not to accept things are wrong.  Until something major happens.  I want to shake these people and scream and yell!  I wouldn’t wish anyone with a major illness. I experience firsthand what it’s like.  I see other families that I have met go through the same thing and we pretty much all have thought like this at some point.  So when you meet families with a sick child don’t assume you know everything. Simply ask how things are, then pray for them and go home and kiss your family and be thankful you have a healthy one! Be thankful for the things that yesterday you were pissed about. You never know when or how quickly your perfect life can change.  My life revolves around my child and his life, not the other way around!  I do everything in my power to make sure he’s well taken care of.  His life comes first.

 He didn’t ask to be born; he didn’t stick his hand in the air and say I need an illness. This is what God’s plan is.  Now I have been asked many times how I can still have my faith after all God has done to me.  This is my response.  God didn’t give me my son the illness the DEVIL did.  God gave me the doctors and the things I need to take care of him.  Sometimes God does take a child home to be with him or an adult for that matter.  He takes them to heaven when their flesh (human body) can’t take anymore.  Loads of people get the two confused and get very angry with God.  I be lying if I said I haven’t felt like that before too.  After a lot of understanding I learned God is who I rely on to keep going. God is the one and only that can heal my child. Yes some of use goes through more than others.  But along the way you always will have someone cross your path that your experience can help them.  Have I learned a lot since I became a mother to my son absolutely!   I met some AMAZING children and some AMAZING parents and some AMAZING DOCTORS.  Do we all count our blessings YES.  When one door shuts on us we wait for the other to open.  I have learned so many things. I am grateful for having amazing doctors. I am grateful for meeting some AMAZING families.  Don’t get me wrong I still have days where I want to bang my head against the wall wondering what in the hell do I do .  Then I remember if it was brought to me then I need to take it to God. Which sometimes that itself is a very hard thing to do! There are a ton of emotions that you have as a parent of a sick child.  There isn’t a manual that comes with a sick child either or any child. 

Well these are my thought for today.  I hope it helps someone out there!

What it's like to be a parent of a Medical needs child!

Being a mother of a medical needs child, I often get asked this question. “How in the world do you deal with or do it all?” Well this is my answer to it. By THE GRACE OF GOD!! Being a Mother of a child with any medical condition doesn’t come with an instruction manual. Boy do I wish it did. However I can tell you that it is for sure a learning process. I can’t even tell you all the stuff I have had to learn. I choose to learn about what my son has so I can be educated. Now no parent wants to hear there is something seriously wrong with your child. Let’s take you back to my very first time of hearing news. (this happens every time the give me something new news or a new condition) I am sitting at the doctors waiting in this very tiny room. I am hoping for some answers to all my questions. Well no parent in their right mind can be prepared for unexpected bad news. The doctor is talking and at one point I am looking him in the face and I see his lips moving but I am not hearing anything else come out of his mouth. For this reason I always ask my doctors to give me a recap or take someone or a recording device with me . At the very moment that my mind goes blank while the doctor is talking I am thinking WHAT THE HELL DID I DO FOR MY CHILD TO DESERVE THIS???? This question will never be answered because over the years I have learned it’s not my fault. As parents the first thing we do is blame ourselves! It’s a natural reaction for us as humans. We have to learn that God made us special for a reason. Yes it can be argued Why, how is all this useful? Once everything soaks into my brain I decide you know what this is the path that was chosen for me so no more wondering or feeling sorry for everything that isn’t in my control. Time to pull up my boots by my boot straps and to put on my big girl pants & go in to Survival mode! I have a child that I brought into this world and that didn’t ask to be created that depends on me to take care of him. So my brain goes on auto pilot! Time to learn what is best for my child from his doctors and do what needs to be done no matter what the cost or what anyone else thinks. Onto phase two. Having a child with any medical condition comes with all kinds of trials and errors to see what works best for your child. I will never ever forget when some family members thought we were nuts, crazy, overprotective, making things up . All because they choose not to believe or understand what we were dealing with. We as parents try to educate them but you can’t make someone listen to you. You hand them over to God & pray for them. The hardest thing for any parent is to except that there is something wrong with your child and deal with everyone else. The second hardest thing is the expensive medical things that the insurance doesn’t cover which are always never ending. Sometimes we as parents feeling like beating are head against the wall or wishing those magical money trees really exist. Or totally beating yourself up because there you can’t provide something that your child needs. The third hardest thing for me is seeing what my child goes through and sees him in pain. Seeing the world through your child’s eyes is and can be very eye opening. As parents we make what choices we think is best for our child. When my husband & I make decision we don’t do them very lightly. It usually comes with hours of research and endless talks with our child & the doctors. Weighing out the options if we go down this path or if we choose another path. Each step isn’t taken lightly & a extreme amount of thought goes in to every decision we make on a daily basis. We don’t get the luxury of flying by the “seat of are pants” or being spontaneous. Everything we do is planned out. Heck you get to the point where you even plan out the “what if situations “. Now, there a whole other aspect to all of this when you have one sick child and one healthy one. The other child who’s healthy also feels like us parents sometimes. Simply, because they also get the short end of the stick too. How you ask? Even though there healthy they learn that there maybe things they can’t do or places they can’t go all because of your sick child. They also grow up quicker than they normally would. They we as parents go back to beating our self up all over again. Once again it takes a lot to be able to get over these feelings. The only thing I can say is every time I got educated I made sure to educate my children sick & healthy. If you exclude your healthy child but make them live with the atmosphere of the sick child they will rebel and even possible blame the other child and even decide that there mad or hate you. I didn’t want that risk so every time we learn something with my son. I choose to involve my daughter. So people think that’s wrong but I have seen firsthand what not involving the healthy child can do. Now don’t get me wrong my daughter still has these feelings of why off and on. I always tell her to take it to God & imagine if it was her and not her brother. Is it right she has to mature a little earlier no but does it and will it help her when she is an adult YES. Well this is what has been on my mind lately. I hope this helps some people understand how we as parents feel.

OMG I can't fit anymore information in my Brain!

Having a child with a medical condtion comes with a TON of imformation. Plus lots of things to remember to do or not to do. Recently they added some more conditions on to my son's already long list of stuff wrong. UGH! Right now I am trying to absorb it all and figure out the best method to deal with the new stuff. Of course I am trying to figure how the new stuff is going to mix with the already existing medical conditions. Research and being educated by the doctors really really makes my head feel like a computer system. I am not saying what his condition is just yet until I can wrap my own head around it. I will inform everyone once I have a game plan in place .

Days turn in to months turn in to years!

You know something ?? For the life of me I can't figure out where are my time goes. I am always busy doing stuff for other and my family but rarely have time to breath let alone think. Then when I try to think of something , usually when it's time to sleep my mind just thinks about 50 million things. I think I am need of a Vacation ! HA , yeah right I don't have time for that. Between cleaning house , homeschooling my son, fixing meals , laundry that's never ending I barley get time to breath . Oh and taken care of extended family to. I swear I sometimes feel like I am pulled in every direction but the normal one. I am finally starting to feel my energy return after many many years of it being gone. How is this possible? Lack of sleep! I got a new bed ! It's a sleep number and let me tell you I can actually sleep which is nice! I haven't slept more then a couple hours at a time since I was a very young child. After years like this it will catch up to your body / muscles. I like waking up feeling refresh instead of sleepy. Was the best purchase I could every make . Anyone who thinks Sleep Number is expensive it is but well worth the investment. It's been a good few months for Tristan. He still gets his infusions every 28 days. He's only been sick a couple of times. WHOO HOO! Sometime I will be writing a post of what most people don't understand about having a sick child or what you actually give up . Anyone who thinks its a piece of cake I ask walk a day in my shoes and think with my brain. What is normal anyway ?
Oh Yes < I almost for got! I am so very proud of my daughter! She won an ESSAY Contest over VFW Patriot Pin. She won for our county. She is one smart cookie.!
Well till next time .................

So God Bless Everyone who is praying for my son and family We ARE VERY GRATEFUL!
Please people keep donating that blood and plasma ! You are helping my family. I am very grateful to everyone who has ever donated. God Bless you all in every way!!

Soon

Soon I will be writing a post that is About how I feel! Plus All the questions I get asked. I am trying to write it now so people will understand it. I just hope they actually get it!

Bring on 2012

Well It's a New Year!! Hopefully this year brings lots of new things. I am going to try to update more often . I even put on my calendar with an alarm to go off so we shall see if that works.

Tristan is still getting infusions every 28 days. The hospital switch to a different company for the blood infusion which cause all the kids to have the exact same reaction/side effect to. So now there back getting the normal makers of the infusion. Thank Gosh too! The side effects were not good at all. Plus it seemed like Tristan was sicker then usual with that brand . It's been a interesting couple of months to say the least and Tristan has lots of sick down time. I hope this is the start to a better year of things to come.

As of October

As of October Tristan's infusions levels got raised. He is such a bright child. He's a real trooper . He has been do good since the increase so they decided to take him off his antibodics that he takes every day since birth. Well it only last 4 days then he strated getting sick so now it's a sit and waiting game until the next infusion to see if he will be ok till the next infusion or if he will stay sick. :( In Decemeber we will have 2 infusions one on the 9 and the 30th. Time is patience but sometimes it seems forever waiting to see if the no antibiotics is going to work . Last time the tried the no antibiotics he only made it 5 days and stayed sick. So he is doing a little better.

update
He only lasted 7 days and they put him back on his antibiotics. He currently still takes them .

Time Rewind to Current

Well Tristan's medical is all still the same ! We still get infusions every 28 Days like Clock work . He is still being Home Schooled. We use A Beka school system the last few years , This year we are still using A Beka but we are doing the Academy side . Which is an actual school in Florida and he now has a Teacher and class room . So far we love the system!.


I promise I will try to be a better blogger :) & not make my post so many months apart!

So God Bless Everyone who is praying for my son and family
God Bless all the people who DONATE blood and plasma!
We ARE VERY GRATEFUL!
Please people keep donating that blood and plasma ! You are helping my family. I am very grateful to everyone who has ever donated. God Bless you all in every way!!

Time Rewind Knitting !!!

Well I have been Knitting and making a ton of things. I knitted more then the pictures I am posting but this will give you a taste. I did knit a shawl for Anika to which I will have to find ? It has disappeared from my computer:( I know why so many people love to knit baby items they are very easy and much quicker then knitting an adult sweaters. Now the socks pictured above were knitted by I think Connie I just made the yarn everything else I made for some very special baby's ! They are all super stylish kiddos . Right know I am knitting some socks for my husband's Aunt and a Sweater for my self !

Time Rewind Anika's Cancer Benefit

So you all remember me talking about my friend Anika who was very young (36) and has/had Breast Cancer! Well I am very happy to say she is now Cancer FREE!! Thank you god!! The pictures above are Cupcakes that I made for her benefit I did make over 400 of these yummy things. They were all dairy free and egg free:) They were a hit and I hope they were able to make a lot of money :) The flavors by pictures are as follows the First picture Flavor was a Chocolate Strawberry cake with a Strawberry Frosting :) the Second picture Flavor was a Butter Cream cake with a Rum Frosting ;) the Third picture flavor was a Pumpkin Spice cake with a Cinnamon Maple Frosting :) Did I ever tell you I love to Cook! It was for sure a sea of cupcakes but Oh SO YUMMY!!!! I love you (like a sister) Anika and I am over joyed that you are Cancer FREE!